Everything fell apart

I'd never know why things became what they are now. Suddenly I get the feeling of losing everything. People I love, people I hate, things I've hold on to completely puzzled me in unpredictable crazy ways. December is the best and the worst month of the year. I'm hurt, physically and mentally. I don't know how to keep going, for the next 2 years in high school. But I know nobody could help me except me myself. Tragedy.