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class and business
and the spring festival
sorry, too tired to write anything

busy?

好多事做。
放假后一个星期泡在电影里。
然后开始上TOEFL。天天都很困。还好老师不太吹水。
花市明天开始，应该会忙得剩半条命。我要赚钱。我要赚钱～我要赚钱！
还有好多事没做。
现在先去睡觉～～～

50 WAYS TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE IN 2009

-- US News & World Report

Trainspotting-It's just f*cking brilliant

Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: [narrating] Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?

Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: We took morphine, diamorphine, cyclizine, codeine, temazepam, nitrazepam, phenobarbitone, sodium amytal, dextropropo xyphene, methadone, nalbuphine, pethidine, pentazocine, buprenorphine, dextromoramide, chlormethiazole. The streets are awash with drugs you can have.

Tommy: Doesn't it make you proud to be Scottish?
Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: It's SHITE being Scottish! We're the lowest of the low. The scum of the fucking Earth! The most wretched, miserable, servile, pathetic trash that was ever shat into civilization. Some hate the English. I don't. They're just wankers. We, on the other hand, are COLONIZED by wankers. Can't even find a decent culture to be colonized BY. We're ruled by effete assholes. It's a SHITE state of affairs to be in, Tommy, and ALL the fresh air in the world won't make any fucking difference!

Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: Now I've justified this to myself in all sorts of ways. It wasn't a big deal, just a minor betrayal. Or we'd outgrown each other, you know, that sort of thing. But let's face it, I ripped them off - my so called mates. But Begbie, I couldn't give a shit about him. And Sick Boy, well he'd done the same to me, if he'd only thought of it first. And Spud, well okay, I felt sorry for Spud - he never hurt anybody. So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers - all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person. But, that's gonna change - I'm going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. Now I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm gonna be just like you. The job, the family, the fucking big television. The washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electric tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisure wear, luggage, three piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing gutters, getting by, looking ahead, the day you die.

The pursuit of grades, not happiness

what was I doing? what am I doing?
there r so many things in life worth fighting for and I'd be willing to fight for. why would grades, marks, results become so important in the first place? since when? o right, primary school? or even earlier, kindergarden? it has become a habit that I couldn't get rid of. looking at the scores, I couldn't help but feeling sad, then I ask myself, why should I feel sad? they're just numbers, I didn't like anything I've learnt from school/university, I didn't care, for those subjects. but my future is very much likely to depend on these numbers and so I must make them look good. I've gone through the same reasoning procedure for about a million times. still, I'm frustrated, confused, contradicted.
in the pursuit of grades, there's no happiness, even if I achieve my goal gpa, there would be no joy, only less pain. but the pursuit of grades is within the pursuit of my future happiness, so I should stick to the plan. but if I do this, it will eliminate all my present happiness, when I in the future look back upon now, will I be regretted? I live in today, right now at this moment. and in every moment in my life, I need happiness, I don't need grades. f*ck, it doesn't make sense. what went wrong? am I not thinking logically?
paranoid.mess

MSGDUFS

kind of an experiment.
i'm trying to set up a website and forum using Google services for Mathematical Society of GDUFS.
At the moment it's just an idea with some basic structure. Hopefully when it's done it'll be user(member)-friendly. We already have a platform of communication which is the QQ group but messages cannot be preserved permanently. A forum(google group) is better for serious conversations and problem solving.
Things to do:
Shiny logo for MSGDUFS
Sounding name for MSGDUFS
Contact Prof. Ma, advisor-to-be
Attract new members (through qq, email)
and the X-Files department will have to finish some documents for registering, most important of all, Regulations of MSGDUFS
Plans of inter-activities
and headache: how r we going to raise money? how much money do we actually need?

Messsage to Mark Cuban

Dear Sir,
PLEASE FIRE Rick Carlisle, send away Devean George, Jose Barea, Antoine Wright, and get a real center.
If u don't do this asap, with Kidd aging and Nowitzki's 1 yr left of the contract, the mavs will be no where near the championship for the next 10 yrs.
U probably won't read about this but I've got to say sth after watching the mavs play the kings, it was really disappointing. The mavs coach didn't even exist. Absolutely no strategy. Pls fire him and get someone smart enough to win games.

Sincerely
a fan

what the fuss

9号，考完试的那天晚上，1人拥有整间宿舍，哈哈，于是叫小梓莹来玩sleep over
第二天早上恢复意识的时候，双手交叉在胸前，侧卧，紧贴床的护栏。努力地转过身，再也睡不着....
晒东西实在是一件非常time-consuming的事。10点，把被子拿到6楼，霸位，夹好。11点，翻被子。12点，翻被子。13点，翻被子。14点，收被子，晒床垫和凉席。15点，翻床垫，阳光已经对我的凉席冷漠。16点，忍受不了，收床垫。一整天都奉献给晒东西，人活着到底为了什么？
在等待的过程中，看了两部垃圾电影，neither made any sense.
终于，帮我搬单车的苦力晖爷完成了他的任务。搬个单车，用了不少短信和话费，有点问题...
终于，把一堆东西和自己拖回家。10号。
11号。Teemall shopping. Basically I was window shopping while my friends had made some good deals. Anyway, I hate shopping. Shopping has never given me any pleasure.
On the way back, I got one of my best friends a birthday present and bought another present on behalf of my other friend for his brother which was a difficult task. I wanted to help, but, just wait and see how it'll turn out.
Watched a premier league match Man Utd vs. Chelsea through gsopcast. Chelsea wasn't giving all it could so Man Utd took advantage. It was ugly, lousy and painful for Chelsea. Now I can see where the strength of Man Utd lies.
Lots of things to do until 15th. Hopefully today will be fruitful. I'll try harder and harder to make everything happen.

破洗衣机

搬进属于大四生的宿舍，省去了买洗衣机的麻烦。
然而渐渐地，烦恼出现。
衣服总是洗得起粒，沾上黑色的毛球（应该是室友的衣服or袜子），所有东西经过洗衣机都变脏了，毛巾更硬了，边还磨破了。更甚，老爷洗衣机偶尔甩不干衣服，拿出来自己拧又拧不干，晾起来猛滴水，搞得阳台地板脏上加湿，不堪入目，只好把盆放在衣服下面盛水。
我觉得是因为洗太多衣服洗衣机甩不动，师姐又说不是，那洗衣机就是会偶尔发作...
等师姐毕业了，换？室友会同意吗？
唉，我的衣服啊～

今天究竟是什么日子？

这几天考试很垃圾。
英语还只考了一半，多亏那垃圾的蓝鸽考试系统。
basically 7成把握，希望数分pass。明白老师为什么通水，因为通水我们一样不会做。晖爷考完试终于做了他承诺的事，可当时真是觉得好没瘾，好浪费...
懊悔的心情被我逃避掉了，接近fail的结果我竟然好像没什么所谓...这就是大学的学习状态？unbelievable
高数看到眼花，上q，吓到。原本以为所有人都乖乖地去复习，谁知道连平时从不上线的室友都[蒲佐头]，啊，原来她级数还比我高。好奇怪，难道是因为明天就要回家？回家也不是不能上q啊...不明白
明天要继续垃圾下去了
如果考得可以接受，就回HF；否则...不知道，不想去那个无聊的kbox，不过又有点贪恋那里的Carlsberg Chill
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
I'm a messsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
shite

happy?

fine weather
fine sandwich
Trainspotting
Vicky Cristina Barcelona
3 bottles of pure water
an unfinished english test
3 kinds of medicine 3 times/day
2 subjects of tests left
2 lazy afternoon in dorm
lunch & dinner with friends
Pet Shop Boys
Dido
Piano lessons
and a coming long vacation
oh, why do I feel happy
like I'm floating on the clouds

Drcom!

今天回到学校，心中又无故燃起希望——搞定drcom for linux！如果这几天不成功，又要等到下学期了。
先在ubuntu下把所有之前安装drcom的有关文件都删掉，剩下一个与内核有关的，我想在新内核下应该会自动生成适用的文件，就不管它了。
然后回到vista，上论坛搜drcom，原来1号出了1.4.8.1，马上down下来，还有一个deb
又回到ubuntu，cd, make, sudo make install, sudo gedit, sudo drcomd, drcomc login, ...LOGIN FAILED! 折腾了好半天，还是失败。还不死心，去装deb，谁知运行后的server ip不对，又不知道怎样改——正式宣布失败。
好气愤～～～还没试过做一件事这么有毅力。一个学期，整整一个学期，都在为drcom努力。不断地有希望，不断地失败，不断地想放弃，过一段时间，又有了希望，只不过知道实现的可能性很小，但还是去尝试了，结果又是失望。原来世上还有这样一个无法解决的难题。枉我还跑去问网管server ip，一切的努力都是白费。如果真是这样，superwwt说的比喻真是太可悲了。
难道我又要把所有东西删掉，including 和内核有关的？
在家里用ubuntu真是用得很开心...

关机/重启问题

之前关机/重启不成功，出现密铺的命令行，sudo reboot也没有，只能强行关机。
linux内核升级到2.6.27.9后问题自动解决。

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Intrepid Ibex, Ubuntu Linux

每个人的背后都有一段不堪回首的故事

终于看了期待已久的东邪西毒。太爱王家卫。
一直佩服写影评的人，因为我总写不了电影般的文字。

End of the darkest year of my life

Hope is all I have, for 2009.
The end is not near, it's here.
Reconnected few friends from primary school, one of whom had totally forgotten me. It was sad, cause after all this time, 7 yrs we didn't get in touch in any possible way though we've always had each other's name on qq. He changed a lot. Each of us had forbidden topics and conversation could not proceed. Once again, the feeling of distance!
I hate it. When I went back to HF for the (ridiculous) 120th Anniversary, I felt like a stranger. My mind kept whispering, 'I don't belong here, I don't belong here anymore'. This is me, who couldn't say a word to many familiar faces, who enjoyed silent company with an old friend, the one I anxiously wanted to meet, who ran away from the past as fast as possible.
Clarified something, still a long way to go.
First step of preparation.
Winter break plans- 1st stage.
Regret: didn't spend enough time with X-2, including tonight's outing...
Hope! Hope! Hope!
Start fresh!