holiday's almost over

今天不用英文写。
洗澡时耳朵又进水了，很难受。现在想不到什么好写的。
觉得最近天天吃牛肉，牛肚，牛肾，牛百叶，牛肉丸，牛肉果条，太有问题了，差点吃到厌。
昨天认为最不能忍受的事：宿舍门上开直径约10cm的一个洞，曰防止学生在宿舍打牌。
晚上坐车回家，突然间觉得，整条街都是黑暗的，有光的地方总包括“成人用品”灯箱。
今天去了小公园一带，老房子的入口已经被封了。据说百货大楼下陷，正在加高。如何做到呢？想不明白。
我妈的四姨和小姨总是直白地指出我的缺点，外婆十分明智地说，那是因为她们看不到自己的缺点。
外婆是个有趣的人，她还惊叹我的鞋子很漂亮，有品位。
明天走佬。有空再来探外婆。不过不想来这里，还是去深圳吧...

a tiny city

3 days ago, accompanying my mother, I arrived at Shantou, a small/tiny city along the south coast of China. My primary intention is to visit my grandma who's already 78 years old. However, this is a tiny city where infomation about people coming and going spreads faster than you think, in such case, my mother said we couldn't stay here without visiting her rather close relatives. So I had to follow her almost everywhere as I felt it obligatory to do so.
Went out to meet a friend at a KTV and I didn't sing at all. It was always awkard for me to go to kareokes because I rarely sing in front of people, unless they're really very close friends. Not until I had to look up the map for transportation means did I realized that I lived far from downtown. There were only 2 bus lines out.
This is a boring city and its language sounds like french to me. I was just understanding very few words within any conversation. Sometimes familiar words pop up and disappear in less than a sec, and reappear and disappear few secs later. Frustrating! But some words sound funny to certain extent, which means I'd laugh when I hear them but my mother'd think I'm crazy/stupid.
Later I discovered, actually my mother discovered a funny line came from a loudspeaker on the street, outside a shoe shop. In mandarin it was "平平钱，买双鞋穿趣味". It rhymes with the sound 'i'. Loudspeaker is the symbol of stores selling low-price goods. Very often sound from the loudspeaker was a male/female's voice saying 'the goods are very cheap here! come and buy! or u'll regret it! because we're closing up! this is ur last chance!'. It's clear that the speaker is playing what is recorded over and over again that it sometimes becomes an unbearable noise, just driving people away asap from the coverage of that speaker. However, that very line reflected the differences between people in ST and GZ. Here the people learned the style of selling from GZ and added their own language and attitude of life. They are casual, content though their living standard isn't even comparable to that of GZ. I've never heard of Cantonese buying shoes just for fun and low-price, they care more about brand and quality. My mother and I thought the line was so brilliant that we deliberately went by that store to hear it again, and I asked her to repeated it for me several times on our way home.
Paid a visit to the notorious boat-bridge which charges 60 for entrance fee, and the newly accomplished ST 1st Middle School campus. The later was pretty much like the HEMC of GZ, beautiful but one of the administrators, my mother's uncle, told us it'll take 6 yrs to fully pay the debts, a long long way to go.
When I stay in, I read and sleep and watch tv and surf the net and of course, write this. There's nothing better to do. I'm glad I finished reading To Kill a Mocking Bird which is such a great novel, friendly words with profound meanings.
One thing I have to mention particularly, is that I hate the motorbikes here, they're absolutely outrageous.
later

Revolutionary Road

A friend said she didn't quite understand the movie.
I didn't feel that way. When April suggested they go to Paris, for me, it was déja vu.
Frank, working as an ordinary officer for Knox(?), didn't get any meaning from his work. He was a man without passion, without life. April, who studied acting to be an actress when she was young, buried her dream in daily routines as a housewife. April couldn't endure the emptiness anymore, so she persuaded Frank to move to Paris where she'd support him by working as a secretary while he could take the time to explore his real interests, what he inwardly desired to do. At first, they were thrilled by the plan, but their neighbors and Frank's co-workers made no sense of why they were giving up their life on Revolutionary Road. Only John, an insane ex-Mathamatician, understood their dream to live, to thrive again. Unexpectedly, Frank got a promotion and April got pregnant. April was determined to leave, ready for abortion but Frank, who wouldn't give up his opportunity and his child, had second thoughts. They had a hard fight, then everything went on as Frank wished. Only John saw the truth, the selfishness of Frank. On the last morning, it seemed that April was getting back on track, cooking breakfast for Frank. At that very moment, I can see April's dying, I just can tell. Then I think about the baby, April might kill him/her first then commit suicide. So I waited and everything went on as expected, except that I thought maybe, April wasn't supposed to die from blood lost, which was an accident of her abortion. No one, including Frank, really understood April's death.
From April's point of view, I relived my life, the very few days just after I found out where I got admitted. It was hell and I tried to run away from it. I told myself I would not accept that and I wouldn't go there, that wasn't the life, the destination I was looking for. So I went online and searched for foreign universities. I was determined to go to St Petersburg for the study of medicine and I emailed to the admission office asking about details. Then, after a mental breakdown, I surrendered, to reality. I'm a coward, compared to April. But I know that, April was different, much more desperate than I was. I was still young, having the power to change my future. However she was in a dead end, she could never get out again. She used to have dreams of becoming an actress, then marriage, children, so much boundary made her feel that she had lost identity. From a promising young girl with dream and passion, to one of millions of housewives. Special to ordinary, passion to emptiness, life to death. Frank didn't know what she wanted and their communication was broken. John was the only one who comprehend her feelings but could do nothing to help. People who couldn't understand the movie are those lucky ones who have never been through desperate situations where one is stuck in darkness, helpless and hopeless. Did I have to courage to die? No. I fear death because there are so many things on earth I want to try. I don't know if I can do them all but as long as I live, there's hope for me. But if I were in the state where April was in, I'd choose to leave Revolutionary Road and start over. April was too brave.

art museum

visited the art museum for the European masterpiece of 19C.
i've never seen authentic classic paintings before. it was fresh experience. i don't know about most of the painters but i was and have always been amazed by how they could create such realistic characters, sometimes even more beautiful than the truth. however, my favourite style of painting remains impressionism. unfortunately there weren't enough great works for me to fulfill my expectation.
around 5 pm I was hurried out by a security who did annoyed me a little. despite that, i enjoyed this afternoon, especially after wondering around the beautiful ErSha Island looking for the bus station to go home. only on ErSha island can you find the 'vast' land of 'forest', in GZ.